Darling, Whatchu Have For Me?

Nothing. I have nothing for you.

​That's what I want to say on days like this. On days when I have so many emails left to respond to and I'm running against my daycare closing time. Days when I don't see my husband other than in passing because he's on a graveyard shift right now. Days when I go grocery shopping at 6:30pm with 3 kids and have a bitchy cashier. Days when I feed my kids whatever I could find as I'm shoving random food in my face as well. Days when I come home and something small just makes me snap.

​Days when I feel alone.

​I'm not alone. You aren't alone. We aren't alone.

​There's an army of us. A large one. An army of women who are working hard and pushing through the exhaustion, sacrificing their wants, holding back their tears....and making the world go 'round.

​That's what my friend told me. She doesn't even know it, but she did. I texted her tonight to vent and her response was so striking to me. She said she was sorry and that she understands. When I told her that knowing I'm not alone makes me feel better, she simply explained that WE aren't alone and that she has a lot of other friends that feel the same exact way.

​That's when it hit me. I'm not alone. I might feel alone, but I'm not. There is a world full of women just like me who are doing the best they can to balance the complicated demands of motherhood.

​It made me think that you might be one of them. You might be having a horrible day and feel like giving up. You might feel worthless or not good enough. You might feel like you're drowning. You might need to hear this.

​You aren't alone. We aren't alone. There's an army of us.

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